Life is beautiful even at its most ugly moments.

Fairytales do come true.

All girls are princesses.

God is everything and most wonderful.

Friendships come and go, but promise to leave you changed and filled with memories.

Keep smiling.

Im doing well.. and thats only slightly a lie.

I hope everyone is well.. and all.

Im hangin on with all that I got.......................

and its makin me more crazy than before..........

ive started talking to myself.

Guys are def something to go crazy over.

I moved my room downstairs. Or...well I am moving it downstairs.

Its pretty cool down here...yeah...and I mean cool as in cold too.

Did I mention how annoying guys can be?!

Gah.

4 or none....hm.

I have a lot of books. Its great.

So...Im sad. I really wanted to go to ozzfest. I didnt just down it either. I actually believed in it...I seriously thought it would happen.

Im so tired of always being let down. Especially when I do everything I can to not let people down.

Sigh..

Yeah..well Im done with this....its almost annoying.

Sare

so..

guess whos back, back again,

sadies back

tell a friend.

HAHA and now for another random update thingy cause

 I DONT HAVE TIME FOR THIS!

Being happy is so much better than being...well..my normal.

Or maybe my normal..is happy and the ^ there normal is .......haha

I kill myself.

Anyway..

So graduation.

Wow, I cant believe it came. High School is over.

Now I have to look forward to..

dun dun dun..

LIFE!

Wooohooo!!

Haha..yeah..well Im outie cause I have to swim.

Swim swim swim

Haha.

Im so weird.

Yeah..hm..

Thanks for all the support and uplifting comments..and talks..and whatever else.

My life is going smooth right now..and Im really happy..

Just wish I had balls to stand up to guys who really..just..UGH. lol

I feel so alone.

I feel like, all I do, is for nothing.

I cant please anyone..no matter how hard I try.

Should I give up?

Say Im fine, when Im not?

Keep quiet, cause no one really gives a shit?

I guess.

Maybe I will scream silently.

Do something crazy to myself..

so I dont bother the world with my problems.

My problems..

Ha!

Im tired of being told that I am loved, no one can love me.

Thats the truth.

Ive wanted, for so long, someone to know me...

To know me as well as I know other people.

No one could know me as well as I know Abbie.

No one cares to take the time...

I guess thats not how it works though...

The biggest fan, just cant have any fans.

Im told all the time, that I write so well...

I have so much to offer, Im such a good person.

If that were true....

If I really was what everyone says...

Why do I feel alone,

angry,

messed up,

hurt?

I feel like Im suffocating.

I cant get away.

There are too many ties holding me here.

I dream of better places,

I even make plans..

One day I'll show you...

I will show you Im not just a dreamer.

Someday..

Some way..

I will be..

Someone.